In all honesty to know he was one block away and to not go meet or see him was very challenging and yet I had to ask "why is saying no so difficult"?
One day has gone by since he left. No longer did I feel his presence but through the time he was here and though I did not see him, his energy had a strong effect. I wanted to run, hide, I wanted to pretend he did not exist but then I decided to sit and meditate upon the shadow this presented.
We learn so much about ourselves in our personal relationships. They help us to discover the true self, which is the source of love. We are attracted to those whom we love and repelled by those in whom we are denying in ourselves. At some level we are all the same, whenever we have a positive or negative experience with someone-whenever there is a strong feeling of either being drawn toward someone or of pulling back from someone - we should ask ourselves what is happening? “Why am I attracted to this person? Because they have certain traits. Or why am I repelled by this other person? Because they have particular traits. How come I am denying these traits in myself? I must have these same traits , otherwise my feelings wouldn’t be triggered by this person. I wouldn’t feel this charge from them.”
Every RELATION SHIP carries us to the next level.