Courage to Create

Courage to Create

As young children we finger paint with flamboyant abandon or blithely with color outside the lines with our crayons. We spend time alone watching butterflies or gazing at the stars, sensing our deep connection with the world around us. We give ourselves over to awe and wonder, safe in our innocence.  Creativity comes naturally, spontaneously. We express freely in our delight in being. 

But as we grow older, something happens to expel us from this Eden of playful ease. We begin to discover a separation or departure from our natural innocence. Have you returned to your natural innocence?

Taking Care of Myself

 Taking Care of Myself 

So how can we energetically shift out of shame into a self-empowered stance that projects worthiness? We have to train ourselves to honor our desire body. Our desire body is the faculty of our emotional body that desires, craves, hungers for and yearns after. Our desire body is our idea generator and attraction mechanism. It cannot work for us if it is suppressed, condemened or judged. In fact, it works against us when we have a negative attitude toward it.


Desire is the basic instinct that propels us to find everything from food to God. Hunger and longing to belong are both desires. From hunger we are motivated to get fed. From longing to belong we learn how to experience and align with the Infinite. When we are attuned to the Infinite, we are really set up to get our needs met. We not only get our survival and physical needs met, we get our emotional and spiritual needs satisfied too. What greater satisfaction than to be at peace and relaxed, feel loved, and to know that the struggle is over.

Now… let’s visit the above from an empowered stance

Our ability to manifest depends on our ability to magnetize

Magnetism radiates from am unconditionally loved desire body

The power of positive projection increases with deep inner satisfaction

Our ability to claim grows in the garden of self-love

Clarity shines in front of the mirror of the soul

Direct connection is nurtured from a humble, yet confident, stance

Owning our responsibility as co-creators allows us to claim what is ours

From Sabotage to Satisfaction

Manifestation is a function of magnetism
Effective magnetism is based on a powerful projection
There is no power of projection from needlessness
There is no ability to claim from shame
There is no clarity in a cloudy self-image.
Thee is no direct connection in an apologetic stance

How our RELATION SHIPS teach US

A couple of days ago an x reappeared in my life. I had not seen nor heard from him in 8 months. He text messaged me to ask where he might find a late night good place to eat and if I had time to meet. Being as I had a very busy day scheduled for the next day, had already eaten and truth be known knew I had to say no in order to not fall back into something that would end up as nothing. I responded via email and told him the truth. He called. I did not pick up. I went to bed. In the morning I listened to his message. He wished me a good night and mentioned he would call me in the morning or for me to call. I sent another email. It is for the best we do not meet and we did not.
In all honesty to know he was one block away and to not go meet or see him  was very challenging and yet I had to ask "why is saying no so difficult"? 
One day has gone by since he left. No longer did I feel his presence but through the time he was here and though I did not see him, his energy had a strong effect. I wanted to run,  hide, I wanted to pretend he did not exist but then I decided to sit and meditate upon the shadow this presented. 

Today after leaving the gym I entered into a clothing store to look at a beautiful sweater that reminded me of the one that got stolen on my honeymoon with my x husband (sign sign everywhere a sign:)

The sales rep started talking to me. Then she started crying. I asked her what was wrong. She began telling me about a 6 year relationship ending the night before she got married. This was to be her 2nd, his 3rd. She saw signs, so many signs to get out of this abusive relationship long before he called the wedding off yet she stayed.Then she asked:" Colli why is it so difficult to say NO". My reply: "I believe for some of us we really do not know how to say YES to ourself.Maybe we were never taught how important and special we are so we never developed these essential skills. Instead we give ourselves away."
We learn so much about ourselves in our personal relationships. They help us to discover the true self, which is the source of love. We are attracted to those whom we love and repelled by those in whom we are denying in ourselves. At some level we are all the same, whenever we have a positive or negative experience with someone-whenever there is a strong feeling of either being drawn toward someone or of pulling back from someone - we should ask ourselves what is happening? “Why am I attracted to this person? Because they have certain traits.  Or why am I repelled by this other person? Because they have particular traits. How come I am denying these traits in myself? I must have these same traits , otherwise my  feelings wouldn’t be triggered by this person. I wouldn’t feel this charge from them.” 

Simply seeing someone as undesirable is different from being judgmental, angry and outraged. It is when we react to a person that we know we are being presented with valuable information.

So RELATION SHIP is a wonderful tool for the growth of our soul, for learning about ourselves, and for clearing a path to the final stages of love, which are surrender and ecstasy. Every relationship we have is the one that begins just at that right moment in our life, and it is meant to take us to a higher level of awareness,  


Every RELATION SHIP carries us to the next level. 

Trust Thyself

Trust Thyself

It is now that as I look back and I remember taking a philosophy class where we studied Emerson’s Essays that contained in them what this was all about:

 “Trust Thyself: Every heart vibrates to that iron string. Accept the place the divine providence has found for you, the society of your contemporaries, the connexion of events. 

Great men have always done so, and confided themselves childlike to the genius of their age, betraying their perception that the Eternal was stirring at their heart, working through their hands, predominating in all their being.

Permission and Attention are the Magical Keys

Permission and Attention are the Magical Keys

Something magical happens when you truly and honestly give yourself permission to feel angry, sad or afraid.

 Practice really letting it be OKAY to feel and get in touch with what happens to the energy in your body.

 Pay attention to the interaction between mental acknowledgment and permission and the stress or agitation in your belly. Notice what happens to your “out of control” desire when you simply give them attention. Permission and attention are basic to self-love tools for cultivating deep emotional peace and satisfaction

Another magical thing happens when you follow this interactive sequence between the mind and body…

Your INNER - EXPRESSION -the Best Anti-Aging Secret

Do you have Your own innate sense of Your own Inner-Expression.
What is it You are loving? Do you love the divine expression of you? 
Maslow called it Self Actualization.It is not competitive. What are you attracting? What is emerging within yourself? 


Are you the nurturer of yourself? What are you self actualizing and expressing? What is your chosen work which is rewarding yourself and at least one other person. This will bring out your greater self.


The best anti-aging remedy is the realization of your own purpose and so ask yourself "Do I realize my potential? What do I want to EXPRESS? What is MY INNER - EXPRESSION?


Your happiness is from the nurturing of yourself and the giving it out to others. Remember that unhappiness is the push and drive for you to EXPRESS.
Remember you and I are EXPRESSIONS of the larger. Say yes and have faith in the process itself.